I'm still here, but I'm tired! But I'm sure not as tired as my sweet mother in law. I've begged her to let me stay at the hospital with FIL at nite, but she's having no part of that. So I stay during the day to let her go home.......but only after the doctor's have come by. Of course on the weekend, they come at a leisurely pace!
Russell's dad had a ct scan of his brain this morning, because since they know the cancer is active again, the first place it wants to go is to the brain. I hope not many of you have ever had to experience this, but doctor's talk about cancer as if it is a person. It "likes" to go to the brain, it "reacts" a certain way or doesn't react that way. It's so weird.
Papa was confused a good bit today, but every time he woke up he talked about buying a new car, a Tahoe to be exact. He would sleep, wake and talk about it....he wanted prices....brochures the whole bit. Of course, we aren't sure he'll even drive again, but it's a nice thing for him to focus on. He did walk a bit today which was a very big event!
All day, my mind was singing over and over again that old hymn "Open my eyes that I may see, glimpses of truth thou hast for me, open my eyes illumine me, Spirit divine..." I know some of you must remember that hymn. I'm not sure if it was just a comfort thing or the Lord was trying to tell me something, especially the part that says "Silently now I wait for thee, ready my God thy will to see, open my eyes illumine me, Spirit divine." That silent part always gets me.
One thing for sure, when you are in a helpless position silently waiting for the Lord to reveal His will is the only place to be!