I really don't know how people without the Lord live through days of crisis. These past few days have been a whirlwind of emotion, and may be for a while. Thursday nite I had a call from my son saying he was going to kill himself. Just as an aside, he is a veteran of the first Gulf War, since it is veteran's day. He didn't as far as I know...someone went to check on him and that's the last I've heard. I didn't sleep well that nite, but i didn't fall apart either. I just said "Lord, I know you are there and you are the only one who can save him from his destructive lifestyle." And I have to put my trust in Him, knowing that I can trust Him, even with my child's life.
Friday, I had that early dr. appt. then attended a luncheon....meant to rest in the afternoon but it just never happened. At 10 Friday nite, the retirement center my mother lives in called to say she had fallen and hit her head and what did I want them to do? ????? I jerked on some clothes, drove over to find her still on the floor. They were afraid to get her up because her blood pressure was sky high....I may have been foolish, but I had to get her up...so I got down, had her put her arms around my neck and we struggled up and sat her down. She had a huge lump on the back of her head and was dizzy and nauseated, so they called the paramedics and I called my brother and away we went to the emergency room.....I don't know if any of you have ever been to the E.R. on Friday nite late, but it is not a pretty place! Thankfully, the scan of her brain was o.k. and now they are running lots of tests. Her blood pressure continues to fluctuate and stay high. I'm just praying she will get steady on her feet so she can return home.
So after a couple of sleepless nites, I'm home to sleep! Tomorrow we will deal with tomorrow.